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Unveiling the Beauty Within: Empowering Stories, Self-Love, and the Journey to Rediscover Your Inner Goddess by a Pittsburgh Boudoir Photographer.

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Hannah’s Boudoir Experience | Pittsburgh PA Boudoir Photographer | Indiana PA

August 06, 20224 min read

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I had such an amazing and transformative shoot with Hannah, so I asked if she would be willing to write about her experience with us. She responded with a Yes, and her writing brought me to tears. Read on for her experience written by Hannah herself!

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“I am NOT the type of girl you would expect to put on lingerie and heels and pose for a camera. I am an introvert. I have social anxiety disorder. I am full of insecurities. Despite all this, I can look back at the timeline of events in my life where I was a confident woman who didn’t think twice about putting myself first. I used to feel like such a strong-willed badass which made me feel sexy. Now I barely recognize myself at times and feel guilty when I “stick the kids with my husband” to leave to do something for myself (which is hardly ever). I realize this has nothing to do with my boudoir experience, but I’m getting there, I promise.”

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” I recently became friends with this woman who is a confident, sexual, “girls girl.” She mentioned how excited she was that her appointment to do a boudoir photo shoot was coming up. I thought “that’s you, this is me” and no way could I get myself to even want to do something like that. I felt uncomfortable just talking about it, but then she pulled up j.jae Boudoir’s portfolio online. If I could think of three words to sum up what I thought and felt looking through the photos, it would be “artistry,” “connected” and “desire.” These photos were artistic and beautiful. I felt a connection with the photographer’s decor style which made me feel comfortable that she may also understand me. Lastly, I had a desire to do something “big” for myself that I knew I wouldn’t regret. I wanted to do something that would get me back to feeling sexy and confident again. I wanted photos like this of myself to have forever. I scheduled my appointment.”

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“I knew this was going to force me to deal with multiple insecurities and get uncomfortable. To start, I was told to show up with no makeup and hair undone. I’m someone who won’t leave the house without at least mascara and a ballcap to hide my undone hair (insecurity #1). I have also never had my hair or makeup done by someone else. I did my own for my wedding! Jaclyn told me to trust the process. I sat in that chair getting my hair and makeup done for the first time ever, letting go of control, and it both felt and looked amazing!”

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“I didn’t own any lingerie! I also didn’t own any “sexy” heels, I had to borrow some! Picking out lingerie and seeing myself in lingerie instead of a sports bra was an experience in itself. I was nervous that my husband would walk in and make a big deal about it. I cannot handle being the center of attention (Insecurity #2), so how was I going to be the focus of a photo shoot?! To my suprise, I was completely comfortable during the shoot and now realize how amazing lingerie can make a woman feel. I now look forward to wearing it!”

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“The insecurity that I knew I would struggle with the most would be my body image. My legs in particular (insecurity #3). I have always struggled with how I felt about my legs. I remember being a young kid and hoping I would wake up with “normal” legs, like that was even possible. Even if I receive a compliment that my legs are athletic, it still makes me feel insecure. The insults I received when I was young laid the groundwork that they are “too big” and “fat”, so I assume anyone complimenting them now is just noticing how “too big” they are. I realize how distorted that thinking is. Jaclyn asked if there was a body part I wanted to highlight in my photos. I chose my legs, because I wanted this experience to give me the opportunity to see my full self and accept it.”

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“Fast forward to seeing myself on the screen, picking out which photos to keep. I am the biggest critic of myself and usually have to take 800 photos before I get 1 that is a keeper, so I did not expect to struggle eliminating photos. I would have kept them all! There was one photo in particular that when it came up on the screen, it forced me to realize that I have such a distorted view of body. Without any control over my emotions I started to cry (good tears!). It was the most revealing photo of my legs with no super flattering angles, and I loved it. I get emotional just thinking about it because in that small moment it made such an impact on how I felt about myself. In that moment I allowed myself to love how I looked, after years of not accepting myself as good enough. I think I was meant to do this boudoir photo shoot for that particular moment, if not for all the beautiful photos. I am so thankful I didn’t shy away from this opportunity. Thank you, Jaclyn, for being so talented at your craft! “

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Hannah’s Boudoir Experience | Pittsburgh PA Boudoir Photographer | Indiana PA

August 06, 20224 min read

Custom HTML/CSS/JAVASCRIPT
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I had such an amazing and transformative shoot with Hannah, so I asked if she would be willing to write about her experience with us. She responded with a Yes, and her writing brought me to tears. Read on for her experience written by Hannah herself!

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“I am NOT the type of girl you would expect to put on lingerie and heels and pose for a camera. I am an introvert. I have social anxiety disorder. I am full of insecurities. Despite all this, I can look back at the timeline of events in my life where I was a confident woman who didn’t think twice about putting myself first. I used to feel like such a strong-willed badass which made me feel sexy. Now I barely recognize myself at times and feel guilty when I “stick the kids with my husband” to leave to do something for myself (which is hardly ever). I realize this has nothing to do with my boudoir experience, but I’m getting there, I promise.”

/

” I recently became friends with this woman who is a confident, sexual, “girls girl.” She mentioned how excited she was that her appointment to do a boudoir photo shoot was coming up. I thought “that’s you, this is me” and no way could I get myself to even want to do something like that. I felt uncomfortable just talking about it, but then she pulled up j.jae Boudoir’s portfolio online. If I could think of three words to sum up what I thought and felt looking through the photos, it would be “artistry,” “connected” and “desire.” These photos were artistic and beautiful. I felt a connection with the photographer’s decor style which made me feel comfortable that she may also understand me. Lastly, I had a desire to do something “big” for myself that I knew I wouldn’t regret. I wanted to do something that would get me back to feeling sexy and confident again. I wanted photos like this of myself to have forever. I scheduled my appointment.”

/

“I knew this was going to force me to deal with multiple insecurities and get uncomfortable. To start, I was told to show up with no makeup and hair undone. I’m someone who won’t leave the house without at least mascara and a ballcap to hide my undone hair (insecurity #1). I have also never had my hair or makeup done by someone else. I did my own for my wedding! Jaclyn told me to trust the process. I sat in that chair getting my hair and makeup done for the first time ever, letting go of control, and it both felt and looked amazing!”

/

“I didn’t own any lingerie! I also didn’t own any “sexy” heels, I had to borrow some! Picking out lingerie and seeing myself in lingerie instead of a sports bra was an experience in itself. I was nervous that my husband would walk in and make a big deal about it. I cannot handle being the center of attention (Insecurity #2), so how was I going to be the focus of a photo shoot?! To my suprise, I was completely comfortable during the shoot and now realize how amazing lingerie can make a woman feel. I now look forward to wearing it!”

/

“The insecurity that I knew I would struggle with the most would be my body image. My legs in particular (insecurity #3). I have always struggled with how I felt about my legs. I remember being a young kid and hoping I would wake up with “normal” legs, like that was even possible. Even if I receive a compliment that my legs are athletic, it still makes me feel insecure. The insults I received when I was young laid the groundwork that they are “too big” and “fat”, so I assume anyone complimenting them now is just noticing how “too big” they are. I realize how distorted that thinking is. Jaclyn asked if there was a body part I wanted to highlight in my photos. I chose my legs, because I wanted this experience to give me the opportunity to see my full self and accept it.”

/

“Fast forward to seeing myself on the screen, picking out which photos to keep. I am the biggest critic of myself and usually have to take 800 photos before I get 1 that is a keeper, so I did not expect to struggle eliminating photos. I would have kept them all! There was one photo in particular that when it came up on the screen, it forced me to realize that I have such a distorted view of body. Without any control over my emotions I started to cry (good tears!). It was the most revealing photo of my legs with no super flattering angles, and I loved it. I get emotional just thinking about it because in that small moment it made such an impact on how I felt about myself. In that moment I allowed myself to love how I looked, after years of not accepting myself as good enough. I think I was meant to do this boudoir photo shoot for that particular moment, if not for all the beautiful photos. I am so thankful I didn’t shy away from this opportunity. Thank you, Jaclyn, for being so talented at your craft! “

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